It was not as awful as I thought it was going to be...going back to work. I actually kind of felt alive again. Using my brain for something other than trying to remember which side Cole nursed from last and when the last time Ella ate any vegetables felt invigorating, not to mention haveing full conversations that didn't get interupted by the words Mommy or someone crying. I did notice that I thought about them alot and wondered how they were. I hope that this new situation works out for everyone and that we will figure out a babysitting situation. But until then...thank you to everyone who is helping out while we are still working on things!